In the night, second day of Eid Mubarak, I was sitting alone, looking at the sky without the stars and the moon. I was thinking of you, the one who came to my dream last night. I was confused, Alex, where were you now? I was always confused why you always came to my dream while I was not expecting to get it.
"Nana..." called my Mom from downstairs. I was shocked. While I was daydreaming, there was some voices came from my front yard. I heard that my father greeted some people outside and opened the fence for them.
"Yes, Mom..." I replied. I stood up as soon as I heard my Mom's voice. I went to downstairs and came towards my Mom.
"What's wrong? Do you need help?" I asked and sighed. I ran downstairs, so it felt a little bit tired.
"Your father's old friend is coming. We should prepare some meal and snack." Mom replied and I nodded. I then prepared some opened-snack and meal while my Mom was preparing some beverages.
"Can you pass the sugar?" Mom asked, I said yes. I counted the glass which my Mom prepared, there were seven glasses there. I didn't know how many people there were plus my family, then I asked my Mom.
"How many family members Mom?"
"There are 5 people..." My Mom answered and we finished the preparation. I helped my Mom to bring all of the stuff to my living room. When I saw who were coming, I was very shocked. There was someone who became the one whom I adored when I was high school. It had been 5 years now, and he came back without any signs before. 'Alex' I said in silence.
"May I introduce to my children, this is Nana, Lily, and Glen..." My father smiled and introduced three of us. Lily was my younger sister and Glen was my older brother. I was stood up in confusing. Why was he coming now? Yet, I can see his face in shock. I did know that he knew me too.
"I think that I've ever seen your child before. You are Alex, aren't you?" I remarked suddenly. I didn't know where was the feeling coming from?
We stayed in silence, after that his father spoke. I was sure he was Alex.
"You have known each other?" his father asked to Alex. He still sat in silence without any bravery to speak.
"We attended school in the same place." I added and I could see Alex in shock.
"Is it true Alex?" His Mom asked to make sure. Alex hadn't answered.
"By the way, please forgive me for all my mistakes, happy Eid Mubarak..." I greeted all his family, in fact I forgot to greeted them, it was Eid Mubarak time. We greeted each other and shook our hands, when it came to Alex, I held his hand tight.
"I have to go upstairs. Thanks for coming..." I said and I went to upstairs. I did not want to disturb them. But, when I came to upstairs, something hit me. I wanted to walk and talk with Alex. I wanted to ask him every single thing. We never spoke intensively while we were in high school. I was only his secret admire when finally I ruined everything. I told him and he blocked my number in the chat application. I missed him so much, this time was this time. The right time for me to speak with him.
After ten minutes of thinking that crazy idea then I went downstairs.
"Hello everybody, I am very sorry for disturbing your time, but can I... hmm... talk to Alex?" I found silence. We all took a glance to each other, especially to Alex.
"Sure!" His father's exclaimed.
"Dad..." I heard Alex's voice finally. He tried to deny my request.
"She just wanted to talk..."
"But..." I heard he sighed. I could feel my mother took my hand and whispered.
"What do you mean, Nana?"
"I just want to talk with him. Besides, I want to buy some things for his family. So I need an informant..." Good move, Nana.
"Okay..." 'Yes' I exclaimed silently. Finally I could speak with him.
We then moved and greeted to our family and I could see that Alex was so lazy to walk with me. We went outside. It was a little bit cold in Jakarta. So, that I wear my jacket and headscarf. We walked in silence, after five minutes, I started the conversation.
"It is okay if you do not want to walk with, actually. But, I think I am very happy to finally meet you. I do not know you are my father friend's son." He was still quiet. I smiled and looked on the ground.
"You know, it was a scarce chance for me to walk with you. Are you that quiet?" I could hear he sighed. I looked at him now, he was just looking straight to the road we walked through.
"I... am very sorry for everything I have done with you before. I know you don't like me at all when I told you about my feeling. I knew it was disgusting. Totally, disgusting." I chuckled and still heard his sigh only.
"But, it was truly from my heart." We finally arrived in the nearest shop to buy some things for his family.
"What food is your favorite? Or your family's favorite?" I asked, he was still not giving me any response. Oh God, how hard this situation is. But, I was very grateful to have this.
"Hmm, it was the orange biscuits and the chocolate one. The chocolate is my favorite." Oh my God, finally he spoke to me. I smiled widely and took the biscuits. I also took some syrups and beverages.
"Do you like coffee? You can take some if you want to." I offered him. I faced him now, he got confused.
"I'd love to. Thanks by the way." He took two bottle of instant coffee then we went to cashier counter. I paid them all and went outside of the shop.
"Thanks for the walking." I finally spoke after 5 minutes in silence. Why did I always count our time? I sighed. He was still not giving me the response.
"You're welcome..." He replied. Thanks God, finally he gave the response. I looked at him and smiled.
"You know, it was okay about your feeling..." Now, it was my turn to stay in silence. I didn't know what made him finally speak to me.
"Thank you... for the walking too..." I smiled only, yet I saw a woman standing in front of my house.
"God!" Alex exclaimed when he saw the woman. We walked to see who she was.
"Rita..." Alex called when we arrived at my house. "What are you doing here?" Alex held her hand. It was so intimate. I thought that he had a special relationship on her.
"I am looking for you. We have appointment today. Do you forget about that?" She asked him in anger. I knew that something had happened here.
"Alex. I was trying to call you. But, it seems that your phone was dead." His sister, Lisa, came towards us. We then stayed in silence. I then broke the silence.
"Look, Alex. I have to go. Thank you for coming to my house. And... Lisa, thank you for coming too." I smiled and kissed Lisa's cheek and ran to enter my house. I greeted Alex's family and I still could hear Alex fought with Rita. I didn't want to disturb his business. I sighed in my room after giving the things to his family. Why was I so stupid? Alex had a girlfriend. Why did I ask Alex for the walking? Why... I asked myself and sat on my bed. I didn't want to disturb anymore. I was so upset that night and I lay down on the bed and fast asleep. Please God, I wanted to forget this day.
***
I woke up the next morning. When I looked up my watch, it was five o'clock. I fell asleep for 10 hours. How tired I was. I walked to the bathroom to wash my face and I saw some weird things around my eyes. They were big. I didn't realise that I cried so hard last night. When I washed my face again, I heard that my phone buzzed. I saw the number, it was unknown. I didn't recognize the number before then the message said 'Hi Nana. Thanks for last night! It was amazing. This is Alex. x' I closed my mouth in disbelief.
"Nana..." called my Mom from downstairs. I was shocked. While I was daydreaming, there was some voices came from my front yard. I heard that my father greeted some people outside and opened the fence for them.
"Yes, Mom..." I replied. I stood up as soon as I heard my Mom's voice. I went to downstairs and came towards my Mom.
"What's wrong? Do you need help?" I asked and sighed. I ran downstairs, so it felt a little bit tired.
"Your father's old friend is coming. We should prepare some meal and snack." Mom replied and I nodded. I then prepared some opened-snack and meal while my Mom was preparing some beverages.
"Can you pass the sugar?" Mom asked, I said yes. I counted the glass which my Mom prepared, there were seven glasses there. I didn't know how many people there were plus my family, then I asked my Mom.
"How many family members Mom?"
"There are 5 people..." My Mom answered and we finished the preparation. I helped my Mom to bring all of the stuff to my living room. When I saw who were coming, I was very shocked. There was someone who became the one whom I adored when I was high school. It had been 5 years now, and he came back without any signs before. 'Alex' I said in silence.
"May I introduce to my children, this is Nana, Lily, and Glen..." My father smiled and introduced three of us. Lily was my younger sister and Glen was my older brother. I was stood up in confusing. Why was he coming now? Yet, I can see his face in shock. I did know that he knew me too.
"I think that I've ever seen your child before. You are Alex, aren't you?" I remarked suddenly. I didn't know where was the feeling coming from?
We stayed in silence, after that his father spoke. I was sure he was Alex.
"You have known each other?" his father asked to Alex. He still sat in silence without any bravery to speak.
"We attended school in the same place." I added and I could see Alex in shock.
"Is it true Alex?" His Mom asked to make sure. Alex hadn't answered.
"By the way, please forgive me for all my mistakes, happy Eid Mubarak..." I greeted all his family, in fact I forgot to greeted them, it was Eid Mubarak time. We greeted each other and shook our hands, when it came to Alex, I held his hand tight.
"I have to go upstairs. Thanks for coming..." I said and I went to upstairs. I did not want to disturb them. But, when I came to upstairs, something hit me. I wanted to walk and talk with Alex. I wanted to ask him every single thing. We never spoke intensively while we were in high school. I was only his secret admire when finally I ruined everything. I told him and he blocked my number in the chat application. I missed him so much, this time was this time. The right time for me to speak with him.
After ten minutes of thinking that crazy idea then I went downstairs.
"Hello everybody, I am very sorry for disturbing your time, but can I... hmm... talk to Alex?" I found silence. We all took a glance to each other, especially to Alex.
"Sure!" His father's exclaimed.
"Dad..." I heard Alex's voice finally. He tried to deny my request.
"She just wanted to talk..."
"But..." I heard he sighed. I could feel my mother took my hand and whispered.
"What do you mean, Nana?"
"I just want to talk with him. Besides, I want to buy some things for his family. So I need an informant..." Good move, Nana.
"Okay..." 'Yes' I exclaimed silently. Finally I could speak with him.
We then moved and greeted to our family and I could see that Alex was so lazy to walk with me. We went outside. It was a little bit cold in Jakarta. So, that I wear my jacket and headscarf. We walked in silence, after five minutes, I started the conversation.
"It is okay if you do not want to walk with, actually. But, I think I am very happy to finally meet you. I do not know you are my father friend's son." He was still quiet. I smiled and looked on the ground.
"You know, it was a scarce chance for me to walk with you. Are you that quiet?" I could hear he sighed. I looked at him now, he was just looking straight to the road we walked through.
"I... am very sorry for everything I have done with you before. I know you don't like me at all when I told you about my feeling. I knew it was disgusting. Totally, disgusting." I chuckled and still heard his sigh only.
"But, it was truly from my heart." We finally arrived in the nearest shop to buy some things for his family.
"What food is your favorite? Or your family's favorite?" I asked, he was still not giving me any response. Oh God, how hard this situation is. But, I was very grateful to have this.
"Hmm, it was the orange biscuits and the chocolate one. The chocolate is my favorite." Oh my God, finally he spoke to me. I smiled widely and took the biscuits. I also took some syrups and beverages.
"Do you like coffee? You can take some if you want to." I offered him. I faced him now, he got confused.
"I'd love to. Thanks by the way." He took two bottle of instant coffee then we went to cashier counter. I paid them all and went outside of the shop.
"Thanks for the walking." I finally spoke after 5 minutes in silence. Why did I always count our time? I sighed. He was still not giving me the response.
"You're welcome..." He replied. Thanks God, finally he gave the response. I looked at him and smiled.
"You know, it was okay about your feeling..." Now, it was my turn to stay in silence. I didn't know what made him finally speak to me.
"Thank you... for the walking too..." I smiled only, yet I saw a woman standing in front of my house.
"God!" Alex exclaimed when he saw the woman. We walked to see who she was.
"Rita..." Alex called when we arrived at my house. "What are you doing here?" Alex held her hand. It was so intimate. I thought that he had a special relationship on her.
"I am looking for you. We have appointment today. Do you forget about that?" She asked him in anger. I knew that something had happened here.
"Alex. I was trying to call you. But, it seems that your phone was dead." His sister, Lisa, came towards us. We then stayed in silence. I then broke the silence.
"Look, Alex. I have to go. Thank you for coming to my house. And... Lisa, thank you for coming too." I smiled and kissed Lisa's cheek and ran to enter my house. I greeted Alex's family and I still could hear Alex fought with Rita. I didn't want to disturb his business. I sighed in my room after giving the things to his family. Why was I so stupid? Alex had a girlfriend. Why did I ask Alex for the walking? Why... I asked myself and sat on my bed. I didn't want to disturb anymore. I was so upset that night and I lay down on the bed and fast asleep. Please God, I wanted to forget this day.
***
I woke up the next morning. When I looked up my watch, it was five o'clock. I fell asleep for 10 hours. How tired I was. I walked to the bathroom to wash my face and I saw some weird things around my eyes. They were big. I didn't realise that I cried so hard last night. When I washed my face again, I heard that my phone buzzed. I saw the number, it was unknown. I didn't recognize the number before then the message said 'Hi Nana. Thanks for last night! It was amazing. This is Alex. x' I closed my mouth in disbelief.
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